I am bombing this week

This week has been a rough one. One of the girls in our ward just passed away from leukemia. Although it's a completely different situation from what happened with us with our son a few years ago (OMG, it's actually almost been 4 years now!) it brings up a LOT of memories. When we were first going through the grieving process is when I put on the majority of my excess weight. Every time these memories surface, it is so hard not to turn to the food again. This week I have really struggled. I think I've actually gained about a pound and a half. I hate this. I hate that it's so hard.