I am not giving up!

At a meeting the leader was speaking about blowing it. When we mess up a lot of us tend to let that be an excuse to give up. I have thought "I've messed up so bad today what's the point of trying. Pass me the fried chicken." A bad meal turns into a bad day which means I blew the WHOLE week so I can't possibly get back on track till NEXT week OR next month. Been there so many times. (That's why I am FAT!)

Weigh in tonight...good news

down 3.4 lbs
total down 13.4 lbs

I've reached my first Milestone. I made it to my 5% weight loss mark!

I am doing pretty good on the program. I seem to have a mess up day about once a week. But the next day I get back in the saddle. I've learned that I am trully an emotional eater. When I am stress and feeling anxious I eat. I noticed this when Elora was born. If she would cry and cry I would eat. :( Food is my coping mechanisim. Now that I know this I am trying to be more aware of why I am eating. I ask myself if I am really hungry.

Last week I didn't go to WW meeting because of the snow storm so I don't know my official weight. My bathroom scale says I am down but I don't trust it.

I did have a melt down day and I messed up. However, I DIDN'T GIVE UP. It felt so good to wake up the next day with a new set of numbers. I like WW because I can start over each morning with a fresh slate.

I rejoined last night

I Signed up on-line. Tracked points. Went 21 points over! Had no clue those Oatmeal cookies were so many points. I did fine on the meals. It was the snacking that seemed to get me. I seriously NEED something sweet after each meal. I also noticed that from 3-5 pm I was really vulnerable. That seemed to be the time I consumed the most calories. I need to plan a healthy snack for that time of day.

down 5.2 lbs total

ended the day with 7 unused points!

workout points

it's taken me a few days to get back on track. It's amazing how quickly one starts to slide when one just skips a few days. I revert right back to my bad habits. Yesturday was my best day this week. I only went over by 4 points. I've earned 39 workout points so I still came out even. My goal is to one day stop using my earned workout points since I know it would speed up weightloss. For right now though they are my saving grace.

Bad week

I gained 1.5 pounds. We went out of town and I didn't follow the plan at all. I ate whatever I wanted and I had a very upset stomach. I thought it wouldn't be hard to get back with the program but it really was. I seemed to have lost my momentum. Today I was 30 points over. That's a whole days worth of points! I used up almost all of my weekly bonus points in one day. MY STOMACH ACHES!

I don't even know why I kept eating. I wasn't hungry. It was like I couldn't stop.

I took the baby to the carnival to ride the Merry-go-round. I thought it would be a nice treat for us all to share a funnel cake. My logic was that one funnel cake a year was moderation. However, when I got home and looked up the points I discovered that half of a funnel cake is worth 16 points! Elora really enjoyed it but I felt very guilty.

Because I had messed up so bad I justified eating 4 oreo cookies and 1 cupcake. Cupcakes actually are pretty low on points but this one was a 4 pointer because it came from the store.

BAD BETH.

I am determined not to give in to that little voice telling me to quit.