3 point cup cakes

This cake mix unprepared is 2 points per cupcake (if you make 24 cupcakes.) I made it with applesauce instead of oil and egg whites instead of eggs. The Fluffy icing yields 6 TBSP a serving for 3 points! Half of that, is only 1 point!

I am bombing this week

This week has been a rough one. One of the girls in our ward just passed away from leukemia. Although it's a completely different situation from what happened with us with our son a few years ago (OMG, it's actually almost been 4 years now!) it brings up a LOT of memories. When we were first going through the grieving process is when I put on the majority of my excess weight. Every time these memories surface, it is so hard not to turn to the food again. This week I have really struggled. I think I've actually gained about a pound and a half. I hate this. I hate that it's so hard.

Trying to replace comfort food

What do you do when you are in a full out foul mood and the only thing you can think of to comfort yourself is food. I'm talking really bad infertility day and what I really want right now is a super sized chocolate shake and french fries?

Motivate me

Here We Go

Do any of you remember watching the Disney cartoon "Peter Pan"? Do you remember the part when Peter Pan, Wendy, and the boys learn to fly and head off to Never Never Land? Peter Pan pronounces, "Here We Gooooo!!!" Then they fly off to the unknown. Well, that's kind of how I feel beginning this weight loss journey. I have NEVER been able to lose any significant amount of weight, and it has ALWAYS been disgustingly easy for me to GAIN significant amounts of weight. With Weight Watchers, I feel like it's finally FINALLY possible to turn this trend around. So far I have lost 15 pounds. I feel like I'm finally making some permanent type of progress. Anyway, just wanted to post those 2 cents.

Forgive yourself.

Doctrine and Covenants 64: 10

"I, the Lord, will ^aforgive whom I will forgive, but of you it is required to ^bforgive all men."

Be pretty NOW. Love what and who you are now. Love all of yourself, even the flabby flotation ring around your hips! You are a great person. God loves you. You are His child. He made you and God doesn't make junk. YES, you've made mistakes. YES, you've abused your body. You may even have been glutenous. You failed yourself so many times. BUT, it's time to let go of the past. You haven't made any mistakes in the future yet. It's up to you to control what you do for the rest of the day. Forgive yourself as you would a friend. Treat yourself as good as you would treat a dear friend. You wouldn't constantly berate a dear friend for their mistakes would you? No, so why do it to yourself?

I am not giving up!

At a meeting the leader was speaking about blowing it. When we mess up a lot of us tend to let that be an excuse to give up. I have thought "I've messed up so bad today what's the point of trying. Pass me the fried chicken." A bad meal turns into a bad day which means I blew the WHOLE week so I can't possibly get back on track till NEXT week OR next month. Been there so many times. (That's why I am FAT!)